Me And Lindsey

who knew?
i, for one, did not
for the past three years
i did the same thing with my A-O-L
"welcome you have mail" while moving my mouse
watching videos and checking Blackplanet
of all places, i met you on Blackplanet, December 2003
ironic, huh?
i was "nigga, say what?" and you
you were Midwest Mami #15
i barely knew you, but there was something
something i cant even really explain verbally
we talked and typed, and when i got tired of reading
i bought phone cards, 25 dollars a pop, times 5
you could say that was the beginning
of showing you what i was willing to do for love
so i found out i had long distance
AND IT WAS ON!!!
at the cost of 144 dollars and 19 cents!
good thing i didnt have a car to pay for then...
then we stopped talking. no conversations.
you went Joe and i stayed solo
you went AJ and i stayed solo
you went Anthony and I went Tara, then solo again
nearly forgot each other [glad we didnt]
exchanged some words we shouldnt have
time made that better though
and then, just like that
we were like Forrest and Jenny, peas and carrots
except i'm far from slow, and i do know what love is!
then a March 12, 2005 came along, nice day
i had a blonde car, with dreams of going up north
"baby, meet me in Kearney"
"Kearney, where the hell is Kearney..oh, off I-35? i can find that"
"at McDonalds? which one?...there's only one?!"
you snuck up on me in the parking lot
and the rest is history
we rode, we laughed, we kissed
we stared, we thought, we listened, we wondered why it took so long
why it took forever to see you.
7 hours. and it was over.
i was hanging by this moment
hanging most painfully, nonetheless
sitting at school, while everybody else was focused
on Multi-Ethnic Literature and presentations
yours truly was thinking about you
to the point i was dead to the world
i spent four to five days like this...
and just like that, it was Saturday again
after all the house cleaning, money spending
getting lost in the woods. getting keys locked in cars
and bad attitudes.........
you-----unleashed-----this-----passion
of which its power i'd never before experienced
you rode, we laughed, we kissed, we stared
we moaned, we whispered, we thought, we listened
I WONDERED.........
who do i need to thank for this?

Letter to My Unborn Child

for my offspring that hasn't found a mother
before you get here, we're here to help one another
as entertaining a fatherhood has got me preparing
mind, body, and soul, so i will perpetually care
about the welfare of my prosperity
just hope your mother is the proud woman i marry
because for many a year i've seen drama
"you aint shit" battles between papa and mama
them two words make black man's face contort
court docket, joint custody and child support
10 thousand dollar chain keeps em bound
one of many reasons that i wont mess around
that and i dont want to contribute to the downfall
of America, the division that traps us all
would hate for you to be at an academy
parent teacher conference, like "where's my daddy?"
daddy loves you always remember that
do you any harm, and i'll attack
ride or die for you, and them some
no matter the circumstance, it's all love
baby x, i'd never let ill will between Jack and Jill
fill me enough to tumble our bond down a hill
you can holla whenever you need me, and then
one to keep a promise and someone to believe in
all i ask of you is to honor my wishes
always put your parents before any women.
if you do that for me, i'll be Mr. Dependable
even if you don't, i'm still Mr. Dependable
i know your impending birth will be my pinnacle
joy for my family and silence for the cynical
analytical, want you to exceed what i did
brag about how i got the world's smartest kid
some nights, i sit and laugh about my infant lineage
cracking up that someone's gonna be my spitting image
when you exit the womb, and not a minute before
raise your little fist, tell you the world is yours