i'm going through troubling times in my lives
my face says i'm doing well, my heart says otherwise
somewhere i don't wanna be, a rock and a hard place
really don't wanna think, the brain's at a slow pace
been plenty of years since i said grace
before i went to sleep, with the foot of the bed at my face
maybe that's the reason my moods change with the seasons
hemorrhage in my hand but i just cant stop the bleeding
i'm not your average nigga, so average solutions won't do
and that's why sometimes i feel halfway blue
it's hard out here for me, i wish that you knew
i kinda wish that you, could have the slightest of a clue
to let you know that my life ain't all comedy
a little bit of drama, horror and pornography
should go to college, and major in geography
so i can flee the scene, and then minor in finding me
i know my girl knows that i've got problems
and it hurts cause i don't know how the fuck to solve em
thinkin about the memories gets me delirious
first i thought it would pass, it's gotten more serious
good times in Loose Park, warm rain after dark
kissing under the stars, so many places to start
three days and fuckin, that really meant something
first time i didnt have to do no frontin for nothin
thats why i need a way to put this on the back burner
cause God knows, dont wanna be the next to hurt her
hanging her feelings from under a cork tree
she'd serve me revenge, atreyu know i can't eat
have me in my Nikes, be running like Forrest G.
if i put her through pain, i'm sprinting eternally
i might not express a lot of things to you
but i appreciate the care and things you do
some days, i don't feel like getting up
and some days, i feel like giving up
but i figure if i've come seven thousand days wit yall
today damn sure won't be my last hurrah
been through the wire, fire and brimstone
7 break-ups and watching my pops go home
8 years, 11 months after he fathered me
yeah, it hurts, all the sons and fathers i see
all these years, that's what i wanted for me
never got to see what he wanted from me
but i gotta believe through all this crying
one day i'll be aerial with him, forever flying
laugh it up, catch up on old events
also, discuss those tragic days, how they came and went
haha, i look how you look, and acted how you acted
just wanna let you know, that i love you for that kid
