Ally's On

Life will always have its cons, what we do with them that matters
Tempests will find their way into your life, but you can always dry off and keep moving
Trust me, baby girl, it gets worse before it gets better
Liberation attained easily isn't liberation worth pursuing
Dwell in the dark and one day come to light
Don't seek to be understood by others, forge your own path
It starts from you, as no one will believe you
If you don't believe yourself

OutSpokenWords

i ain't politically inclined
but these politics?
designed to keep niggas behind
opportunity, what is it?
that senator's word placement
is so exquisite.
fractured school districts,
yet it was so necessary to
maintain the power and white district
young black NIGGAS steady hitting pavement
this city needs help, guess we aint on their wavelength
jackson county says i don't pay
they assume cause i'm a
non custodial parental, few hours and a couple days
got me up in the system perpetuating cycles
getting told when and where, like this is the
definition of delightful
all because of one teenager's furor
i diagnose bullshit, sadly no cure.
i have been screaming for years
that child support was never a fear
today its much more
jagged edge that pierced me to the core
man, my life at once had so much polish
then in one fell swoop,
shit was demolished.
sometimes i wanna say fuck you and whoever designed you
since i'm the conductor of controversy designed to provide for you
don't wanna be your house nigga, quite as a mouse nigga
brash, raw, unadulterated
imititated, never duplicated, voice unabated
fuck the suburbs, that's what i always say
and to you, i say fuck you and have a nice day

The Name Game

How foolish of me to think
That I would get something from you
Especially when the less deserving
Get the sweetest piece of the pie
I should not have expected much change
Directed my way, silly of me
I figured you laughed all along
While I fought
And I now I feel like a fool thinking you were on my side
Now you wonder why I am fatigued
Uptight
Untrusting
Your biggest adversary is now your biggest ally
This makes me question where I stand
Sometimes you smile in my face
Like there can be an us
Silly of me

The Overfield Effect

something tells me that evil is at work
with his nicely pressed shirt and suburban smirk
seems wholesome but got a hole deep in him
and some girl somewhere too hurt to forgive him
promised her all, but never got none
he says no words as she stares at the sun
so she can never see another man's face
and she can slow her thoughts down to a snails pace
he's got her but then again he doesn't get her
quite unrequited as she indulges in the liquor
if he don't love her then Jack will
Apparently so, cause they sleep by the windowsill
she used to cry in the morning when he would leave
now she's dead to the world with no time to bereave

42 Lines of Angst Falling Out

i cant even front, cause i was kinda glad
finally got some free time from her wicked ass
But Tuesday passed twice, and she still aint come back
Feeling shitty, but I can't blunt that
In short, you moved out and took half the shit
Took three women and a funeral for here to split
These four walls started seeing rare days
Waking up on the regular with blocked airways
Dyin a little at a time, tryin to stay alive
Through rhyme, though it aint work everytime
Hate for your muthafuckin ass was clear in every line
Always wishing that karma would eat you a live
I'm an asshole? I guess thats fact
Cause there's another ex that can attest to that
I used to be cool like Bahamas shade
But Lisa came through and made monster babe
Moms don't like me, and i don't like your mama
Cause she too judgemental, like to start a lot of drama
I'm too different and now we got scandal
Lisa got pregnant thought I might scramble
Oh, But to the contrary
Even though we treat good fathers like Santa Claus and the tooth fairy
I'm there through the storms and sunshine.
Depending on me every muthafuckin time
Thats fine, im here to provide
When these other fucks is just down for a ride
Always tellin me i need to grow up
But you stay running in the same circles what the fuck?
And tell your friends to fall back in line
Worry bout your deadbeat while you all up in mine.
I hate to be keep it 100 but 50 wouldnt cut it
And if you can't see where im coming from then fuck it
people hate what they dont understand
and she quick to get over me and under another man
lisa swear up and down nothing happened
little do she know im in the background laughin
i wonder will it come a day that she'll get pissed
when she find out that dude she diggin don't exist?
or maybe he do and just deep within
or maybe that dude is actually me, i'm actually him.
or i'm just jerking your chain cause i like to pretend
or that i used him as a vehicle to make some amends

Random Lines #1

You seen so much bad, you can't recognize steady
Still young in the game, but I'm in the hall already
What you say goes, i think not you wanna bet me?
I swear you a piece of work, a Warhol already
A little problem for you is too much to handle
Shit hit the fan, you wanna scramble like Randall
You say you wanna real one, but you cant fathom a sample
Get in that position and you just start abusin it
See straight through you, them moves is translucent
i got that complex smooth shit that psychopaths move with
How you laying out grades with a fucked up rubric?

Zipless

i have a decision to make
drift off into this slumber
that i so desperately need
or bet on black
and hope for the possibility
of the end of futility
silly, i know
there was invite
and i who am i to turn down
a blunt, conversationalist
could be fate
or, as is most likely the case
me yearning for physicality
and not wanting to masturbate
black it is
i'll take the risk
so twenty miles and two cities later
i'm in unfamiliar territory
not sure where the night is going to take me
and there she was
a prototype for me if there was ever such a thing
haven't been here twenty minutes
and i'm thinking whether i want to be a gentleman
or if i want to be carnal
i bounce back and forth between the two
one overriding the other at any given point in time
and then it happened
an upward spiral
a dark room
came together like good chemistry
sweat
wet
damn
thrust
caught up in the lust
fuck it
it's been too long
merely because i don't settle
its over, and i'm in the birthday suit
discussing life
zipless, just how i like it

"Jordan"

what do you when the trust is gone
the love is thrown into question
and your emotions predominate your logic
storms happen.
what happens when a woman's fed up
whether its justified
or out of sheer insecurity.
solitude happens.
the search to find answers
becomes an odyssey
and that is never good.
i pine for her still
in the comfort of my pen
never again from within
because. it.
keeps the road easier to travel
knowing that moment in time
likely will never come again
but, how, i pine for her
in all phases of the day
i pine, oh, i pine.
for a chance to change,
the day everything went awry